I have a well developed habit of avoiding exercise, going back to the years when exercise could have been life-threatening for me. I had severe asthma as a kid and as a preventive measure, I was told “don’t run, don’t get too excited, stay put….” There were no medications or inhalers at the time and it was a common and legitimate way of managing that disease.
But now, when it’s no longer necessary, those “don’t run” messages are still with me. Exercise is the best thing I can be doing for myself at this point. Yet I still get into struggles with myself about it.
I have been in physical therapy for the past few weeks to increase my strength and balance. At my age, there is a danger of falling and the therapy is doing wonders for me. But this morning, I again had to fight with the old messages to get myself to get myself to go.
My commitment to life includes continuing the PT and then continuing with an 8 week program for people who have just completed PT and want to slowly start an exercise program with coaches and trainers who understand my limits. I will continue from there.
I don’t think the old messages will ever completely leave me. But I know where they live and I am working to replace them with new ones. I can and will do this.